Saturday, August 12, 2006
I'm willing myself to admit it, maybe I am lonely. But I must also will myself to become stronger, just in case the long road ahead gets even worse. Just last night, the short distance I traveled, by myself, as my friend pauses to wait for her significant other, is quite symbolic. She timidly asked to me wait with her, wiggling in fear that I should... It's those times I wish I had someone of my own to wait for, to count on. But I mustn't look for distractions, for substitutions, for second hand affection. I must face the emptiness head on.
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*hugs* I'm just a phone-call away =)
Same kind of thing happeneds to me, maybe it's still happening to me now. I bury myself into my work; my friends in grad school help to a certain degree; then for the rest of the pain, I talk them out of my system to my parents and shop them out. My Dad told me that everyone has mental problem and emptiness of some sort, there are no exceptions on earth. You just have to get them out of the system with distractions. Call me whenever. Okay, fine, don't call me from 12 a.m to 7 a.m, that's the time I sleep during weekdays.
Tian, you told me to embrace delayed gratification, and so I did, and am still doing it. (And I'm entrusting you that I'm making the right decisions) You told me to wait for love, and that it would come in due time. I'm not giving you advice right now, but simply repeating what I've heard from you. Call me anytime!
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