Should be doing genetics... I am not.
Should be writing a paper... I am not.
Should be working after a weekend of over-spending... I am not.
Instead, I am pouring over this indulgent chronicle of my ordinary life, the trivial details that I so hope would bring nolstalgic warmth into my life ten years from now, when I am older but none-the-wiser.
Today could almost be the most dreary of all Mondays. I woke up in the worst of moods, so tired that I snoozed despite the math test at 8:30 am.
Then I called my dad and lost my temper because I mistakenly thought he had decided to paint our new house white... all white!
Two things saved today for me, cardio kickboxing and the the package I received from mom filled with all things red for Chinese New Year!
Here is my hypothesis to explain this mysteriously melancholy mood -- Little Swallow is in China celebrating the most festive day on earth, and here I am, doing laundry on a rainy Monday night.
4 comments:
Don't be so hard on yourself! Call your father and apologise, if you didn't already. Parents are gifts from GOD, I know, both of mine are dead, and I miss them so much. As you grow older, do things that you think you wouldn't like, (nice things), don't go through life always only doing what you think is expected of you, you may resent it later on. All study and no play makes any young adult dull! Laugh, instead of grumble, smile at people instead of ignoring them. Since you are a kickboxer, you shouldn't have to worry about any of them being "mashers", right? When you first wake up, say a prayer, and thank GOD that you are given another day, in which to do something good. Make yourself happy, don't wait for some event to do it for you. You have the opportunity to make your life what you want it to be, don't sit back and let it make you. TAKE CHARGE!!! Happy New Year!!!
You're not alone. A friend showed me this website full of New Year delicacies-- http://www.popyard.org/cgi-bin/npost.cgi?num=39893 --saying, "I used to enjoy this food every year, and now I can only dream about it......Some people say 'Homesick is just Stomachsick.'" Anyway, hope you enjoy your New Year's Eve.:-)
Anon2
You're not alone. A friend showed me this website full of New Year delicacies-- http://www.popyard.org/cgi-bin/npost.cgi?num=39893 --saying, "I used to enjoy this food every year, and now I can only dream about it......Some people say 'Homesick is just Stomachsick.'" Anyway, hope you enjoy your New Year's Eve.:-)
Anon2
I know those days well. I've been through many of them. I'm sure you've already apologized to your dad, so I won't tell you to do that. But the time you have with them is precious. I know two people who've lost a parent already. You never know how long you have, so don't stay mad at them, especially over paint. Take the advice of that other comment, have fun. Go out and do something just because you want to. School isn't everything. It's sometimes a difficult thing to realize, but it's true. I put a lot of emphasis on school a lot of the time, but I've finally learned that sometimes you have to save your sanity by blowing off that extra hour or two of study time and go out for a movie or a little shopping. When you get stressed out, take some time and do something that makes you happy, even it's a just a nap.
ps. new house?
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