Twinkles

He has twinkly eyes.  I thought that was just a figure of speech, a figment of imagination, wishful thinking.  But my husband really has twinkly eyes.  They don't twinkle all the time.  Only when he laughs at something really funny (as opposed to his more shallow, polite, fake laugh); when he smiles at me across the table (most of the time it's for no particular reason at all, maybe just a tender thought); and when he has had a good night sleep and wakes up much later than usual (maybe the morning sun has something to do with it).  He glances over at me and if I happen to be awake too... magical twinkles.

Our House...

We have been living here in this space for approximately one year and five months.  We have done a lot, but there is so much more to do.  I have to remind myself that decorating is a process, and we need to take our time.  Another part of me simply want to go online, click a few buttons, set my credit card on fire, and be done with it already.

2014 is the year we decorated a nursery.  I forget that sometimes.  In the beginning of the year (Presidents Day, Feb 17th to be exact) we purchased our bedroom set and decided to halt furniture spending for awhile... And we did, until May when we realized Baby Do is on the way.  Then began the all tormenting question of - changing table or no changing table??  To Ikea or Not to Ikea? Yes, hours and days and weeks of our free time has been spent debating the pros and cons of changing table versus dresser with changing top.  In the end (too close to the end!), we decided on a dresser and till this day (37 weeks and counting), still awaiting on its arrival!  Any day now!

Things this house screams out at me -

1. Finish the basement.  This is number one because I love my husband and I know he dreams about finishing the basement.  I still feel bad delaying this project into 2015 but new construction with new baby makes me nervous.  So spring, when the weather gets warmer and Baby Do is safely tucked away at day care, we will finish this basement.
2. Change the light fixtures.  This is number 1 on my list.  To say I can't stand the light fixtures that came with this house is an understatement.  I dream about the beautiful/modern statement pieces I would put in their places.  Even now... staring at my dining room... I'm thinking about the cast iron rectangular chandelier with iridescent lights...
3. Rugs.  This is easy and not so easy.  Rugs for my study and for master bathroom.
4. sitting pieces for my study.  This is tricky... Too big and it will look crowded/out of places.  Too small and it will look lonely.
5. Bigger desk for my study.
6. Window treatments.  This would probably be lower on my list.

That's all for now.  2015, no pressure.

37 weeks

37 weeks today.  Baby is getting big and her movements feel like shifting landscapes inside my belly. I can feel (what I imagine to be) an elbow here, some toes there.  It's all very cute and intense and surreal and at times even painful.  My favorite is when S puts his hands on my belly and feels her movements too.  He is so awed by even the slightest kick.

It's not all fun and cuteness of course.  I read somewhere that pregnancy is both so beautiful and so ugly.  That has been so true in my case.

11/13/2014 - 26 weeks

1/9/2015 - 34 weeks

A new birthday, A new haircut, and soon a brand new baby!  This BR dress has always been loose on me.  Now so snug I can no longer wear it after the birthday dinner. 

These days I'm worried about:

1. When is she coming??  

2. How she will change S and I, our slightly boring but completely peaceful and mostly harmonious world. 

3. Away from work and all that implies.